Just when I'm pretty happy with my personal statement, I don't have any more schools to apply to. lol
I know it would be smarter to apply more widely, but I am just not mentally prepared to move back from HK to another new place to start school in August. I know plenty of people do these moves, but moving four times in four years is just too much for me. It is important to hit the ground running when I start school, and there is just no time to readjust to life in the States and the new environment and having to make new friends if I ended up in an unfamiliar city. I have decided that I really need to stop obsessing about how I don't have time to waste...blah blah blah. So what if I have to start in 2014 because I have to apply again? Now that I have a personal statement I'm pretty happy with, I can spend more time tightening my research focus and have time to retake the GRE if I want to...so I would have an arguably stronger application which might yield a better funding package. Job or school come August 2013, I will be just fine.
In the mean time, I hope to enjoy the rest of my time in HK. I have a bucket list!
The semester is about to start and I'm already feeling the, eh, for lack of a better word, dread. Hahaha. It's not all bad because I do enjoy teaching...I just don't like having to do the job of three people at the same time. The nice thing is that we will be basically teaching the same modules again, so I get to improve on my performance from last semester. I will also (hopefully) feel less stressed or out of my element now that I've done everything once before. I do think it'll be really busy because of the way the schedule is set up. But I suppose busy is good--I feel useful and productive.
I have to revise the manuscript (sigh) and there is another paper to work on already. Yay? Haha. This time I will really have to roll up my sleeves to deal with the data. Nowhere to run and hide now...might as well embrace my destiny. If I am to pursue a career in health services research, there is just no way I can run away from modeling and econometric studies. Even saying that makes me break out in hives. But I will not be deterred by fear. Heh. It will be a great learning experience. Heh. I love a good challenge. Heh. Heh.
Something about pressing the submit button today really brought a sense of calm. It's like everything stopped for a few seconds to allow me to just enjoy the stillness and breathe.
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