Repacking oversized baggage

I told Jason that it's a lot of pressure to make and keep new friends.  I don't feel it's fair to unload on new friends and be a total debbie downer.  (Not that it's fair to unload on "old" friends either.  But you know what I mean.)  No one wants to hang out with the girl with issues or the girl who's always a little sad.  It's too much effort to be around someone like that.  So Jason said, "Then make a lot of new friends.  Give one person this bag, and another person a different bag.  Spread it around."  lol

Having had more time to myself in Hong Kong (i.e. daily hour-long commute), I'm more aware of the fact that I overthink things and fixate on something until I really am about to jump off the ledge.  I want to solve my own problems and I think it's unattractive to share some of the "crazy" things going on in my head.  Even I think I'm crazy (sometimes).  lol.  I also have a bad habit of making things more complicated than necessary.  Someone told me that I'm the person who messes with the tiny crack on the windshield--I not only expand the size of the crack by pressing on it, but I make it worse by pressing on it forcefully. That is totally what I do...!

Even if I don't share my deepest darkest secrets, just being around other people will take my mind off "problems" and focus on the lighter (and brighter) side of life.  It's a win-win situation.

Talking with Jason reminded me that I can still be considered "cool" even when I allow new friends to see me at my most vulnerable moments.  It's how I choose to handle disappointments and difficult situations that makes people want to be around me.  It's like looking beautiful/handsome even with wrinkles.  And there are many beautiful people in the world with wrinkles.