I used openrice (China's Yelp) to find a nearby restaurant and came across a "winner"--Good Satay.
People were lined up around the corner. I asked how long for one and I was seated immediately. Immediately! Because I was to share a table with two others. Hahaha.
I looked through the menu and settled on Hainan Chicken. And grass jelly drink.
When I put the menu away, it started to feel weird. To be sitting across from strangers...so I take out my phone. It's not like I could even stare into space. Because I would be staring at the couple. So yeah. I was so grateful when the food came. Had to remind myself not to inhale the food. Because subconsciously I would be trying to eat as fast as possible so I could get out of there.
I want to learn to be more comfortable doing things on my own this year. I've never really had to. And I've never wanted to. It's important to learn to balance having a community and enjoying my own company. There is a difference between feeling lonely and being alone.
It's going to be uncomfortable for a while, but I'm not going to run away from the opportunity to challenge myself. The time alone will allow me to slow down. To observe. To think.
There is at least one advantage here--there's rarely a wait for party of one.
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